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Name: Ally N
Location: Belleville, Illinois, United States
Birthday: 1/22/1990
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Thursday, September 14, 2006

well apparently when i dont know what to do i turn to xanga.

im sitting at home cause i just couldnt even go to school today. my parents think im sick. ha they are so oblivious. but thats just because they dont care. as long as i am not making them look bad and not screwing up their chance of having a successful daughter then they have nothing to do with me. especially my dad. he just doesnt understand anything. i tried to buy a book yesterday. considering i dont have a job and he doesnt want me to get a job the logical answer is to have him pay right? he doesnt even want to buy me a book. last time i checked if a teenage girl offers to read in her spare time... i think any good parent would buy their kid a book. whatever. there is so much crap like that. i have a substancial amount of freedom. but it seems like i dont have any any because i have to fight so hard for everything i get. i have to argue just to get a compromise becuase my parents ideas of what i should be aloud to do is bull. they want me to be home more than i go out. well.. when im at home im depressed. when im at home i think to much about all the negatives in my life. when im out im usually really happy and optimistic. but i absolutely dread going home. thats not a good thing. home is supposed to be my sanctuary and my haven. when i'm at home im either alone. and being alone makes me nervous. or im home with my dad mom or sister (or some combo of those 3). my dad trys i know that. but he doesnt understand anything at all. i pretty much ignore him or try to avoid him cause we do not get along. when i try to be nice something happens and i usually still end up getting mad at him or upset or something. my mom... well i know she trys really hard to understand me and meet me half way. but apparently she didnt have any fun when she was younger. at this point i figure im 16.. but i rarely act it. i would love to trade ages with my sister. im not going to go into all of her crap but i know that if i was 19 right now i would be in love with life. she has no curfew. no highschool. no drama. my parents let her get by with everything. she had a good job over the summer. she just bought a new car. i could definately work with that. i hate being 16 and the "baby" of the family. my parents just dont get it. i want to be able to run free and rarely be home. haha i sound like a snotty bitch. im really not. i make my dad dinner every night. i keep the house clean. i take care of my car ((minus the accident)). i go grocery shopping. i do whatever my parents tell me to. ugh. whatever. for 4 years ive been trying to get my parents to understand. i grew up fast. its a little sad that i did.. but im so independent. i hate getting money from my parents. i hate having other people buy my food or my things. i want to do it all myself. but god would i love someone to be ther with me.
that another thing. my parents know about 1 of my boyfriends.. well i guarentee ive had more than that. i cant talk to them. so i cant tell them im dating someone. well.. that means i cant have like a normal relationship. my dad freaks out any guy (friend or boyfriend) that i bring home. hes too overprotective. my mom tries to be cool and talk to me about that kind of stuff.. but it doesnt work out. they are both old fashioned but they would never admit it. plus.. they are both SOO NEGATIVE. if i say something about me being happy or something good that happened to my mom she snaps me back to reality in 2.7 seconds by finding every bad thing about the situation. yea.. thats going to make me want to talk to her more.

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i could go on forever.
but why.. my family is never going to change.

i want to run away. far away. id bring some lip gloss && a fabulous boy. we would just travel the world without any cares.

hmm.. thats when ill be happy. the day i find love.. but not only do i have to find someone who fills my heart.. but also someone who can repair the damages already done to it. && thats whats going to make this a difficult search.


Wednesday, June 07, 2006

hmm... SUMMERTiME.. need i say more?


Monday, May 15, 2006

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so its Bryant n ima update Ally's xanga since shes 2 lazy 2 lol hmmm so yea her life is really boring lol im j/p!!! is pretty exciting i think. mayfest is this weekend so that should be cool, but i got a bball tourney in St. Charels on sat. n sun. but idk wat times so that sucks. but yea i get 2 go shoppin 4 food 2morrow wit Ally afta school, how much fun! but yea idk wat else ta write so ill finish this later

Bryant

<3


Thursday, April 13, 2006

ahh. things have been soo screwed up lately.

but today was a chill day.

went to shiloh park to talk to erin. seriously i couldnt live without her. shes freaking amazing!

and tonight im thinking im in a pretty good mood! ha

<33 me!

 

 

 

dont believe the guy who tells you he loves you..
believe the guy that proves it to you

 

And I'm the girl who will
burst out laughing in dead

silence
because of something
that happened the day before. =]

Messin with me is some
dangerous behavior.
Why don`t you drink and drive?
You'd probably be safer.

boyfriends are like cars.
you never get rid of the old one
until you find a new one

there are too many boys out there,
why dont you be a man?

friend stabs you in the back,
Boys stab you in the heart,
But best friends don't carry knives.

so we [ fall ] for stupid boys. we make
lots of dumb [ mistakes ] we like to act
stupid, talk really fast, & [ laugh ]
really
loud. but us [ teenage ] girls, we're really
good at one thing ;; staying [ strong ] <3

It has to be, to make up for all the hard
stuff
it throws your way. You have to
learn to walk, you have to learn to talk,
you have to wear that
totally ridiculous
hat your gramma bought you. You have
no say in the matter. & when you're a
little older, even though you get to
choose
your hats, you don't get to choose
what
they put in those meatballs in the cafeteria
..or when to fall in love..Things happen,
& you just have to deal with it.

I want a boy who will wait for me in the parking lot we we can walk into school together hand-in-hand

 


Monday, April 03, 2006

needed a new entry...

idk what to say

sometimes life just doesnt go right

and i screw things up more then they should be



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